Ego Resistance

It’s not a matter of combating or fighting this part of yourself but moreso accepting it. A Spiritual Awakening is not always peace, love and light, sunshine and rainbows. It’s about experiencing the death of your true Ego mind and the ripping away of false reality. Life is a spiritual experience, it’s not just an on/off switch that we just turn on whenever we want. Once you open the door, there is no going back because your memories are returning now and through this remembrance your body goes through many rollercoasters of emotions with the resistance of letting go of the old you. This happens because what is going on is your body is detoxing to the highest degree, spiritual, physical, emotional and mentally. So your energy will shift in understanding. Anxiety/fear/depression/isolation/ loss of identity/ physical and emotional discomforts this is all part of the process. What happens is once your start to go through an awakening, your Ego acts as a catylism trigger response that opens up your long term memories slowly this is connected to your subconscious mind. Our subconscious mind is deeply connected to the spiritual world, as we start to understand more, the more and more our memories surface and our consciousness expands in understanding of ourselves. In a summary what you are experiencing is called cognitive dissonance, it is the Ego’s way of letting go. So what happens is you experience a form of Resistance to your certain issue that you are trying to release. It could be anxiety, fear, sadness, depression, dissociation, identity loss, fear of future, regrets about the past, sadness over reality, feeling like you want to save the world, the list is endless. You should look into Ascension symptoms this will help shed clarity on why you are experiencing anxiety and despondence. 

We are also in the middle of a quite heavy Energy shift within this eclipse energy, a meteor shower and the Cardinal Grand Cross only days away, you can really feel the difference it has a very transformative, kundalini feel to it meaning our chakras are getting a work out. I wrote about this recently here: 
http://theawakenedstate.tumblr.com/post/82395244567/lets-do-a-recap-for-the-upcoming-astrological
http://theawakenedstate.tumblr.com/post/81995525306/eclipse-season-is-practically-here
http://www.in5d.com/transmutational-ascension-symptoms.html

So there is not only a lot going on astronomically but energetically as well so expect past issues to come surfacing, ascension symptoms on the uprise and a hella lot of releasing/clearing/detoxing as well. Hang in there. 

love <3

Ash