Strangely i’ve been writing about similar topics in my book!The reason it felt like a hallucinogen is because when we are on drugs we are merely accessing a different part of our mind or a unified perception of the left and right hemisphere. This is similar to the process of kundalini because our mind operates at a much higher intelligence when this happens, we’re able to see into different perceptions or fabrics of reality. Thus creating something like what you are experiencing…the energy has always been there it’s just a matter of utilitizing it correctly. this is how symbols and magick work. it’s about manipulation of energetic currents and learning how to properly channel them to our personal advantage. It is like the different side of the coin towards the law of attaction.
The more affirmations you create of gratitude, the more abundance you receive in your life. The power you fuel the archetype or symbol of reality, the easier it is to manipulate the currents around you. I mean it’s not like harry potter where you can just poof something from nothing but we can create in these currents because they power our reality.