I’m recently experiencing something emotional which I can’t quite communicate with anyone and I would like to ask if you have any guidance for me.
I’ve been with a boy 4 years ago whom was like a mirror( C.)
experienced the same with family, lifepaths, emotional a.s.o. even both our mothers named their three kids starting with C.
I loved him with all it still feels like a dream and reflecting on it now there were so many synchronicities. He was my first physical connection.
The relationship ended after only 2 1/2 because he was about to awaken and I was far from that. he was the first person to reflect that my feelings about our world state are correct. He introduced me to the “door”.
Well like I said he just caved himself in and both of us weren’t able to have a relationship.
He apologized for his way of breaking up with me (he just vanished) 2 years later which was a huge weight lifted.
Now 4 years later I come to understand the significance of many aspects this relationship and it haunts me.
I am currently with someone (J.) whom taught me true love and who healed a lot and with whom I can have the ideal relationship I never knew I could have. I see we have a deep mental connection, even in many past lives.
What troubles me is that I seem to “search” for C. I never really stopped looking for him or thinking about him.
he just vanished after the apology and now (thus be both don’t even have facebook) is nowhere to be found even when I work in the city we met and where he lived by now( by coincedence).
It troubles me that a like-minded indigo isn’t there in my life. I really do lack people who have the same hearts.
I am just so melancholic over this topic and have no one to discuss it with.
I am sorry, I don’t even know what kind of question I have but I guess you could help me somehow.
I just wanna make sure if I’m attached to a idea or if something more is behind this.
All the love and thanks for your time.
The beauty of this world is that we attract our soulmate when we learn to love ourselves. Once we’re able to find that love within, the universe will attract that love back to us. We go through many years of soul searching, through our self-worth issues but once we learn to find the beauty within ourselves we attract that person into our awareness. This is why social media is so brainwashing to the spirit, too many distractions for self -esteem and self-worth issues. So if you are still with this guy who let you find true love then i would be happy and blessed for you are loved. If you never saw this Mr. C. into your life again, be thankful for him but let him go. If you are single and still soul searching then that is perfectly okay too. Thank him for showing you the way but don’t attach him to your present when he doesn’t exist in it. Instead express gratitude for everything you already have within your present moment and love yourself for all that you have become today.
much love <3