Relationships

hi,

I’m recently experiencing something emotional which I can’t quite communicate with anyone and I would like to ask if you have any guidance for me.

I’ve been with a boy 4 years ago whom was like a mirror( C.)
experienced the same with family, lifepaths, emotional a.s.o. even both our mothers named their three kids starting with C.
I loved him with all it still feels like a dream and reflecting on it now there were so many synchronicities. He was my first physical connection.
The relationship ended after only 2 1/2 because he was about to awaken and I was far from that. he was the first person to reflect that my feelings about our world state are correct. He introduced me to the “door”.
Well like I said he just caved himself in and both of us weren’t able to have a relationship.
He apologized for his way of breaking up with me (he just vanished) 2 years later which was a huge weight lifted.

Now 4 years later I come to understand the significance of many aspects this relationship and it haunts me.
I am currently with someone (J.) whom taught me true love and who healed a lot and with whom I can have the ideal relationship I never knew I could have. I see we have a deep mental connection, even in many past lives.

What troubles me is that I seem to “search” for C. I never really stopped looking for him or thinking about him.
he just vanished after the apology and now (thus be both don’t even have facebook) is nowhere to be found even when I work in the city we met and where he lived by now( by coincedence).
It troubles me that a like-minded indigo isn’t there in my life. I really do lack people who have the same hearts.
I am just so melancholic over this topic and have no one to discuss it with.

I am sorry, I don’t even know what kind of question I have but I guess you could help me somehow.
I just wanna make sure if I’m attached to a idea or if something more is behind this.

All the love and thanks for your time.

— indigogenerationI know this one was posted a bit ago so i hope you have healed since this posting and found love. I will just write in general on the topic of Relationships.

Relationships teach us a lot about ourselves because they are truly the mirror reflection of who we are, so when you find someone like this, they will reveal to you the deepest parts of yourselves. I believe all relationships are different, there are some that are here for a reason, some for only a season and some for a lifetime. These all show us deeper parts of ourselves. We go through different relationships sometimes because we are stillsoul searching. So this guy although you may still think of him, your thoughts are still focusing on the past and it is no coincidence he is nowhere to be found in your present awareness because you are with someone else. You are reflecting on your past reflection because you are seeing it from a different point of view, an awakened point of view. People teach us things all the time, there are teachers all over helping us through friendships, relationships, even our parents. They are all showing different parts of ourselves. However our most important relationships are our love relationships because they show us the heart center, how to love ourselves and give that unconditional love back in return.If you are happy and truly love this man you are with then what does it matter about this other indigo from your past? All you are doing is reflecting on how he has helped shaped you into who you are, you can still love him but you don’t always have to love people to be in a serious relationship with them. You can still love people from afar in a very platonic way like a brother or sister who once showed you how to open the doorway to revealing yourself. The trick is to not be stressed or regret our past but to merely accept it as a part of us. I kinda like to say it was worth it to go through all the bullshit and mind games with other guys because it helped me find my soulmate who loves me for who i am instead of just the idea of me.

The beauty of this world is that we attract our soulmate when we learn to love ourselves. Once we’re able to find that love within, the universe will attract that love back to us. We go through many years of soul searching, through our self-worth issues but once we learn to find the beauty within ourselves we attract that person into our awareness. This is why social media is so brainwashing to the spirit, too many distractions for self -esteem and self-worth issues. So if you are still with this guy who let you find true love then i would be happy and blessed for you are loved. If you never saw this Mr. C. into your life again, be thankful for him but let him go. If you are single and still soul searching then that is perfectly okay too. Thank him for showing you the way but don’t attach him to your present when he doesn’t exist in it. Instead express gratitude for everything you already have within your present moment and love yourself for all that you have become today.

much love <3

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