I know I asked a question the other day & I’m sorry! But lately I keep having dreams of being drugged or having bad trips (a big fear of mine because I had two bad highs before from smoking weed) and I thought about those two bad highs and got freaked out just now. I’ve done letting go meditations and everything but I don’t know why I keep fearing what happened & remembering do you have any advice on what I can do? Thank you 🙂
“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”
As the wise words of Dune says, Fear is the mind-killer. It is all about facing our fears and realizing these are nothing but subconscious illusions. When we have a bad experience on weed, it’s usually due to the fact that we are battling against the resistance of letting go. Our cognitive dissonance is our greatest teacher and yet our burdened slave. It is all about facing the Ego this is truly what happens. That’s really the beauty of weed is it teaches you to let go, when we’re not willing to let go it produces fear, anxiety, turmoil, or paranoia. This is why many people can’t tolerate weed is they aren’t willing to let go so in turn it manifests into anxiety or paranoia. The trick to get over this fear you are having is by staying present and realizing you are eternally safe. Your thoughts keep projecting back to past experiences which is what is causing this to start haunting your dreams. So you have to figure out a way to overcome this fear you have by truly letting go and facing your ego. The best medicine for the soul is learning to question your own ego. Meditation is a great tool for this but you can technically do it anywhere. Learning to question your ego takes practice and mind discipline. Instead of merely listening to your thoughts, begin to question why you are having them in the first place. Why am i feeling anxious all of a sudden? why does weed make me fearful? why do i feel angry at this person?
When we’re able to start questioning our ego, we unconsciously build a shield of projection because you then see that the Ego is nothing but illusions. Your fear is nothing but illusion. This can be used on any fear, not just bad highs. When you are ready to stay present, you will find fear is nothing but a mind-killer in disguise.
love and healing light <3