I am having difficulty, because I have some serious body and confidence issues. I used to have anorexia. And part of me feels like I am not special enough or do not deserve to be awaken or have abilities. I am trying to overcome it, some days are good but other days it is really difficult.
You should do some serious work with your solar plexus chakra. Our solar plexus is our power source and our internal fire that ignites our spirit.
Core functions : Transforming energy into matter, matter into energy, ideas into reality, finding purpose, self esteem, self identity, relationship with people
Crystals for healing: Rose Quartz, Citrine, Sunstone, Kunzite, watermelon tourmaline, amber, rhodonite, etc.
How to balance your solar plexus( this is a cool visualization method): http://www.ehow.com/how_2303196_balance-solar-plexus-chakra.html
However i feel this stems deeper, this seems to be an issue of self-worth, self identity and ultimately self-esteem. You DO deserve to be awakened, don’t ever think you aren’t. Complete healing of the solar plexus is always at a soul level, in your own thought process, really dig in deep and find why you feel this way about yourself. Fine the inner source that stemmed these thoughts and be strong with yourself, fight your own inner demons and realize you ARE worth it and have always been worth it.
You are perfectly special in your own way and everyone has their place in the world at this time otherwise we wouldn’t even be here in the first place. Everyone has this potential to awaken and that’s what is amazing about spirituality in general there are no judgments, no rules, no slandering, no misconceptions, no anger, resentment, or anything like that. There’s no limitations at all, It’s all love. You are love.
I don’t even know you but I bet you are absolutely beautiful
Learn to find the love within yourself
Learn to ignite the fire within your own power source
You’re strong, i know you are
So fight it and be strong
if not for anyone do it for yourself.
Be the person YOU want to be
we create our own reality, if you don’t want to feel this way you don’t have to feel this way dear
It’s all the power within you
I will send you much healing light