Relationships always show us our deepest mirror of ourselves, sometimes things have to break apart so better things can come together, this is one of the acts of the dark night of the soul. The act of feeling you lost your other half of your soul. I can tell you are hurting and this is only natural but the universe is telling you to forgive, forgive the experience, forgive the pain, forgive the hurt and let go. Let go so you can be happy again, let go so you can find yourself again, let go so you can open yourself to love of self and love of others. Surround yourself in green, invoke the Rose Quartz vibration of unconditional love and see even those that leave us we can still love them from a different state. Love comes in all shapes and sizes. You saying you hate that you love him is telling me you are hurting, you need to find the love within, instead of finding it underneath someone’s skin. You can be happy again but first it starts with you and releasing the past. Acceptance of the situation and what happened.
Let go of what no longer serves you and you will find yourself again.
One saying i always loved is Ho’oponopono
“I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.”
I love all that you have taught me during this lesson of my mirror reflection
I’m sorry for the hurt we both have caused to each other
Please forgive me for what has happened
Thank you for what you have you taught me about love, forgiveness and truth
I hope this helps you
I send so much love and healing light to you beautiful <3