I was born and raised a Christian but this year I sort of lost faith in the religion. I heard about this and now I feel like I might be an Indigo Child. I’ve always been extremely empathetic and really intelligent. I started understanding concepts really young and I’ve been a great student my whole life. Until this year. Suddenly this year I can’t stand any systems like the school system or the government. I’ve lost the ability to force myself to learn things that I see as useless.
It’s getting harder for me to focus, and I’ve developed really bad insomnia, and then I rarely sleep through the night. Also, my dreams have always been very blurred and I could never really remember them. But lately I’ve been having super vivid dreams and remember details. I also have these dreams where I’m in this beautiful place that looks kind of medieval, but I feel sad. Somehow they feel more like memories than dreams. There are certain songs that give me the same feeling.
I also have developed this unexplainable feeling of longing for something else, something past this world. I feel like I don’t belong here suddenly, like I’m somehow different. And I feel like SOMETHING is going to happen but I don’t know what. I keep having these sort of post apocalyptic dreams, and I ’m always the leader of the group I’m with. I’m 16, but everyone always says I have wisdom and understanding past my years. Do you think I could be and Indigo Child? OR something else?
It sounds like you’re going through the awakening process. A lot of the common signs and symptoms are listed here: http://www.sunfell.com/symptoms.htm
Insomnia, lost faith, change in belief patterns, defiance of the school system realizing that most of what they are teaching is used for the old paradigm as distraction and deflating the truth of reality by feeding us lies. Reading inbetween the lies and realizing the bigger picture helps with the school issue. It lies not in what they teach us but what is held within the connection we make and realize through the lectures. Personal experience really, that’s all it is through various forms of communication we can see that.
Your dreams could very well be old memories coming to the surface, a lot of past lives pop up in our dreams these days. Most of the time dreams are subconscious trigger marks of our soul and symbolic representations of our life in general, things we need to work on or things we experience carried out fears or realizations. vivid dreams are usually always important though, go with your guy instinct to how they make you feel and see where it takes you. Meditating on your dreams or keeping a dream journal are great tips on doing dream work. Also exploring lucid dreaming is another great step for expanding your consciousness.
The unexplainable feeling of longing for something else or feeling like you’re done here or that you belong somewhere else is part of the awakening energies within you. we ARE changing, the earth, our entire solar system is changing, it’s like we’re going through a veil of upgrading our dna structure so this WILL definitely feel like a instinct of exhaustion, disoriented feelings of ungrounding or the ability that the old 3d level of thinking no longer suits your taste. Everything you used to love you almost hate or dislike or can no longer tolerate, it all becomes foreign to you because you long for deeper connections or deep conversation or spiritual upliftment, the old things you did just don’t feel like your cup of tea anymore. Everything is changing within and outside of you so in that same way you don’t feel the pull towards 3d you are feeling higher and filling up with more light energy than before. The buzz of energy within you causes you to lose sleep it doesn’t feel as important or you will be so exhausted like a dead battery that you will sleep for a long time. It’s all about that ebb and flow, going with the wave of energy and riding it.
Post apocalyptic dreams or even apocalyptic dreams in general are NOT about the end of the world, it’s really symbolic of the changes within your own life and the world. Everything is being shaken up at this time, it may feel like the end of the world because everything within the structure is changing but it doesn’t mean that it is indeed the end of the world. It’s merely the flux of the energy taking place.
You could very well be an indigo or crystal but technically all are starseeds it’s just a matter of your perception of reality. Just know that what is happening to you is a beautiful thing, never fear and embrace the love within your heart that is expanding with the golden light of the new aeon.
I wish you much love and light on your spiritual journey of awakening