So I just read what your thoughts are on the energetic front, and let me tell you, besides the fact that this entire year has been a roller coaster of new emotions and epiphanies being realized -at least for me- I’ve been feeling a little extra un easy lately.. I don’t know if it’s because of the super moon that will be occurring soon but the pressure on my chest is happening more frequently lately & I’m having to teach myself how to control these waves.. — ps, I suck at expressing myself though writing but I’m trying—- recently I’ve come to a huge realization & it’s something that I’ve been realizing & thinking about for the past two years, but it finally clicked, & it happened at the most unexpected place/time.. so let me back up & explain myself, for the longest time I have been feeling as if I’m not as present, when I’m looking out I just feel so distant towards this reality as if I’m far away.. one night, as I was sitting down having a casual conversation with my bf’s sister I was feeling this way of distance -more than so— & out of nowhere I see kinda like a screen over my vision, it was craaazy! & that’s when I realized that what I have been feeling all these years is as if I’m looking through a screen and the observer behind it is well aware. As if I am finally more aware of my higher self & more conscious of the fact that I am constantly learning on different levels & that’s why I fade out of this reality every now & then. —now let me tie this with what I had mentioned earlier.. I had done shrooms like five months ago for the first time ever with one of my close friends who is very consciously aware, during the trip my friend kept trying to explain to me exactly what I just realized! she would pick up her glasses & ask me “dani, why do you think they want to make us see a certain way, we don’t need these -glasses- our vision is perfect in it’s way, think about it.” lol I was so upset, she said I even turned my back on her.. but other than that my entire trip I feel like consisted of my ego being suppressed & me getting used to that feeling of letting go of what feels comfortable to me -it wasn’t easy- but I think about that trip a lot & it’s crazy how life occurs at it’s perfect timing. sooo now to the weird feeling of un easiness I’ve been getting, I feel like it has to do with me getting used to really high frequencies that are being projected to me, not in a bad way but to teach me, & I want to do shrooms or acid but I’m scared I won’t be able to calm myself down if I lose control of my self & get that weird feeling I so commonly do when I am sober. is it weird to think that i am already on a higher field & already kinda “trippy” in my thoughts & way of being that doing hallucinogens affects me just a little more since mentally I’m already “there”?? —sorry for my thoughts being everywhere, it took so much from me to actually tell myself to write to you, even though I love what you always have to say—
I’ve tried writing you back twice now and things keep coming up that prevent me from writing so your letter has been hanging out in my draft folder half written, i feel this is a case of where “timing truly is everything” lol
First off it’s okay, i receive so many letters/responses/questions/etc. that a little scrambled isn’t a bad thing if anything it just shows me how your energy responses as i can read the energy of words. So don’t feel bad, embrace your confidence in yourself 🙂
I didn’t even know there was a supermoon again coming up, didn’t we just have one? talk about the summer of supermoons lol. That would explain a few things on the energetic front, we’re also close to the equinox and the equinox is loaded with not only transition energy but also a very deep spiritual window opening. The equinox is one of the peaks of high energy, a gateway of balance where we are faced with a willingness to open ourselves to New Energies. So topple that with a Supermoon where everything is magnified and you have some intense energies going on. I’ve even been noticing strange anxiety reappearing and that is usually signs we’re shifting because the mind is moving much faster than the body. Plus headaches, time moving differently, energy has been strange the past few days on my end, almost reminiscent of entropy/dark night of the soul collective is still going on as well. So these are all taken into account with what you are experiencing right now. The pressure in the chest is usually due to a heart chakra shift, tightness, flutters, feeling heart palpitations, the best thing to do is to not freak out and instead see that this is normal for most people going through a spiritual awakening. It seems bizarre but as all things are connected, it’s just part of the energy shifting very much like the anxiety, the spaciness, feeling more isolated, seeing energy/feelng energy, etc. all parts of the symptoms. The trick is to not fear and let go of all thoughts that don’t serve you.
It’s so funny you mention the glasses bit because i have literally had the same revelation when i was on LSD. I remember laughing about it and being like “this is the big epiphany you’re telling me universe? the spirit world is so close to us, it’s even hiding underneath our glasses this entire time” so that is just too weird!
The way i see it is the screen you’re talking about is energy. The energy of our bodies, the energy matrix and basically the architecture of the universe. If we do think about it from a physics standpoint you are never technically present because “light travels with a finite speed you have never witnessed anything at the present moment. You have only witnessed the past. We all perceive a reality that already happened unless we reach the center of our perception by finding the stillness that happens in each of our personal singularities” and finding the inner stillness is technically what the present moment of NOW incapsulates in a nut shell. so you are most certainly right about your epiphany!
It’s hard to not dislodge the fact that we are not only present beings but we are unified beings of past-present-future merged together. Okay think about how you drive a car, this was really trippy to me at the time but think about how you drive a car, when you at a stop light, you are sitting down and you are in a present stillness but the way your mind perceives it you are moving forward as you accelerate into the future moment of your perception. Now if you either back up or look behind you in your rearview mirror you are looking into your past perception of yourself. Now isn’t that how consciousness technically works? We are time-travelers basically and not many people realize it 😛
To back up to where you were before about altered states of consciousness during your shroom trip. It’s good to see that any drug for that matter serves as a virtual tour inside your psyche. So naturally if you were already hypersensitive it would effect you more because it’s naturally a part of anyone through the collective. Drugs are a gateway into the spiritual world of the divine feminine, they open up our perceptions of how our INTERNAL mind works and operates so to speak. I think there always has to be a bravery or fearlessness when you go into any trip because you are literally looking inside your own abyss of your psyche, the good, the bad and the ugly. The more we create fear around the trip, the more unsettling it can be. You have to try very hard to stay relaxed before you enter into the trip otherwise you won’t be able to let go. And if anyone knows if you don’t let go during a trip, you’re in for a bad time regardless. So i think what it comes down to is knowing you are always in control, this is your mind you’re working with when you enter that state, you can either generate dragons or you can become the dragon. The trip is a lot more fun once you realize your the dragon. The universe is more playful than anything and that’s something i’ve learned through tryptamines. we’re living in a co-creator playground field of God and we’re the ones creating from our thoughts into form. So when you’re tripping rather than holding onto fear you have to move past fear, move past your ego and find transcendence because there is so much discover on the other side of fear. That’s where awakening truly lives and breathes, in the realm of fearlessness.
To add one more thing, i loved what you wrote here, “I am finally more aware of my higher self & more conscious of the fact that I am constantly learning on different levels & that’s why I fade out of this reality every now & then."
If we think about dimensions, we’re thinking about different states of consciousness, your higher self is always guiding you from a higher dimensional state where intuition, synchroncity, etc. lives so yes we are ALL the dimensions because the dimensions are unified and we perceive them as one unified system of the quabalah, the tree of life. The nexus of our minds collectively produces a ripple and when we enter these altered states we’re effecting the ripple even more so and because of the dimensions being unified. We start to see how we operate on various levels of our memories, our deep ancient past, our present awareness and our foresight into the future we are creating. I recommend cloud atlas if you haven’t seen it but that movie basically displays how the universal system works. I think that’s why it got such terrible ratings no one understood it because their ego got in the way lol. It’s really a pure genius film and i always recommend it. 🙂
But yes mentally we ARE already there, just some notice the subtleties more than others. The spirit world isn’t out there,people can search all the want trying to find it but the real quest is that it’s already found, it’s here. within us always.
I hope this helps you!
love
Ash
