Why am I so extremely loving, caring and in the process of awakening then all of a sudden I have an extreme burst of anger for stupid reasons?
It’s the flow of the energy, i like to call it the emotional bipolar rollercoaster lol
It’s mainly due to the fact that you are doing some huge releasing. Awakening isn’t always sunshine and rainbows, it’s about the death of the old self and with spiritual death comes transformation. Both the light and dark of ourselves comes to the surface. These emotions come to the surface for clearing as we are opening ourselves up to the new energies. There is a resistance of the Ego which transforms in various ways via anger, sadness, anxiety, doubt, regret, etc. This is what you are feeling. It’s essentially the old unconscious you letting go of old emotions as they transform into higher vibrational aspects of yourself.
It’s important to always question the ego as it always has truth buried underneath it. It’s something i’ve gotten better with over time but questioning the self is imperative to understanding yourself and awakening. It will pass in time. The best thing you can do is not ignore these thoughts but instead learn to become friends with them. Question them. Release them. and eventually Accept than as a part of you. These are the past emotions coming up for healing, this anger is your WILL trying to let go of the old. If you feel resistance, it means it’s something you need to do not what you should ignore, don’t fight. Embrace and Accept. I always find to deal with my anger issues i have to instead look from a different perspective usually of compassion. It’s about seeing yourself in the eyes of others ultimately.
Hope this helps
much love <3